thesinger
thelyrics
thechords
themelody
foryou
you're
my song.
it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so how can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade.
but everythingmeans nothing.
Friday, October 31, 2003
Happy Halloween?
Sigh.. wad a gloomy day.. Not only on the outside.. on the inside too.. My mood wasn't too good again.. feeling very agitatied and irritated.. Thought about my upcoming papers.. and think that I will not do well.. I guess now everyone has this thinking.. "I can't do well this sem" I guess after the ECPJ.. everyone seemed to have already gone thru exams.. and being drained out.. I have seen my aims this year.. and loking at my current performance.. Nah.. isn't going to be good.. guess I will try to improve only for next sem.. Take this sem as a warning then. I couldn't care less.. I juz want it to be over.. Days seems to be crawling.. I dunnoe why.. And when there are times I am not holding my notes.. I will be feeling extremely guilty.. Then that's when my mood will start to change.. coz I will be blaming myself this and that.. Went for a swim with my sister juz now.. and mood seems better.. Duh... Did some light revision today.. I dunoe whether it is enough.. I dare not to dream for the top 5% already.. should have known.. I dun have the capability..Countdown to exams: 2 days. For once.... I envy slacker's life.
if i ain't got you|6:58 PM|
Yoz.. jUZ studied the Law aspects of BUsiness Environment.. I dunnoe why.. I hated law so much(especially BUsiness Law)... coz they are boring.. they are dry... even Lawyers are boring.. naggy.. Wadever U can think of.. But today.. I read the book carefully and realised that the facts are very interesting.. and there are things you have to know when u start a business or when u file for a case.... I've also learnt many things.. and make a contract to your advantage and stuff like that.. I like this module somehow.. coz it is applicable to real life.. not like other modules.. you can't see it.. you can't touch it.. But Law and INternational BUsiness is somehow revolving around you....Yepz
Hmmm.. well.. my mood wasn't too good juz now.. I somehow railed at Dear when he tried to make me laugh.. Coz I was really damn stressed about my work and feeling down and have no mood for jokes.. He was kinda taken aback and worried.. I am sorry Dear.. Sorry for railing at u.. and making u worry.. I love Ya~~~
Saw my two babies today.. Bu BU and Be Be.. damn fluffy and cute.. one of these days I am gonna bring them home.. Yea.. and play with them all day long.. Cleaned their cage today.. Hmm.. I dunnoe why.. I was like extremely protective towards these 2 hamsters and in the past.. I had hamsters too.. but sad to say.. I didn't really take good care of them.. I find that these 2 hamsters are different.. Is like they have brought me and Dear closer than before... These 2 Rascals really have special meanings and positions in both of our hearts.. Hehehzzz.. Alright.. I'll stop crapping now! Night!
if i ain't got you|1:36 AM|
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
Hello.. hehezz.. Hey pPl.. found another site.. other than Friendster..although I heard comments that this place is not as user friendly as Friendster.. but I htink it is faster than Friendster.. Why not try it out? It's MySpace. Yepz.. Tomorrow early morning might be going swimming.. finally I hope! (cRoSs fIngErs).. Some of you might know that I have said it many times already.. It started before the ECPJ presentation.. Lolz.. NOw my fingers are kinda aching.. coz of writing of notes.. I hope it does help.. Gosh.. INternational Business is really alot to memorise.. or rather alos of info to be pushed into the brain.. I am so afraid that I couldn't finish studying in time.. Haizzz.....
if i ain't got you|11:41 PM|
Tips of the exams are flowing in... Well.. at leats I feel that lecturers in NYP are kinda "humane".. Y? Coz at least they are not really testing our memeory.. otherwise we will be memorizing lotsa junk.. And later in the life.. we will juz clean forget about it.. Hehezz.. Well.... will have a long day today..Sianz... I am really extremely worried about my exams.. but ironically.. I m not panicking.. YOu get wad I mean? My sister finished her PSLE and she is enjoying life now.. Woh~~ Damn envy envy... Come back.. on the computer and spent hours on it.. Moi? spent time on books.. Eh~ Exams are really unncessary trouble to my life.
if i ain't got you|2:37 PM|
Monday, October 27, 2003
I'm awfully missing him alot.. a great deal... every second and minute.. he will linger in my tots... HEll..Juz seen him not long ago.. and I start to miss him? Hmmm... Anyway.. I did some studying today... it was alright.. I am juz doing my best.. ONce I told my dear.. HOw I wish I am like the hamsters.. they are so carefree, so happy... BUt here.. we are bounded by competition.. Sometimes.. I think animals especially pets are so much fortunate than humans... I really very tired of all these stuff.. stressing myself up and etc.. Dear once told me.. "Would it be nice.. if your life is calm.. lead a simple one.. and play with the hamsters.. hehezzz" Well.. he is right.. it is nice to live a life like that.. but.. in Singapore... you can't really do it.. otherwise.. you really can't survive.. HAiz.. these awful tots are in my mind again.. Derrick said smthing today.. Who knows I might get "You Yi Zhen".. Well.. he may be right to a certain extend.. if I dun control my tots well.. I might go to that extend... Arghz.. who cares.. After exams are over.. I am going to play alot.. Hell.. Enjoy like nobody's businesss... Left 6 days to my exams.. Hahazz.. I remember counting for my ECPJ presentation.. and it was over.. Time really flies.
if i ain't got you|11:44 PM|
Saw Be Be and Bu BU today!! hey are so damn cute~~~ Bought sand bath.. and mineral stone for them to "grind" their teeth.. Wanted to bring home juz now.. but cannot leh.. later get distracted.. and mother will "scream" again.. haiz.. well.. I think today is only my second day of revision.. Long day man.. Very tired.. I wanted to go swimming for a few weeks ago... but then always smthing cropped up.. today's weather not good.. Tomorrow going to school kinda early to study.. Sianz Again.. This study week seems long.. HOw I wish exams will be over soon! Yan Rong saked me if I wanna watch the Matrix Marathon.. wanted to... so tempted!! BUt then have those stupid, bloody, senseless, useless papers to tackle with..... Arghz.. HUngry now.. wanna eat.. wad should I eat?
if i ain't got you|12:33 AM|
Saturday, October 25, 2003
I can't seem to rememebr anything? "PuLL hAiRs!" Duh~~~ I can't seem to rememeber what I have studied.. I dunnoe why.. or sub-consciously.. I know? A sudden fear came across me.. What if I forgot everything when I saw the paper? Juz like the last test? I dunnoe.. Smthings is wrong with me.. I juz feel so distracted these few dyas.. LOsing ALL the confidence I have.. Now.. I can search even a little confidence in me... What's happening? Juz feel very down.. I need a break.. but I've lotsa break already! HAte myself so much for doing this.. GUess.. my results are going to get worse..maybe, it's the end of me...
if i ain't got you|8:27 PM|
Friday, October 24, 2003
Yoz.. well.. did mange to study a little today... really little.. should have studied more.. but I dunnoe why my head was kinda heavy today.. wanna sleep more only.. IN the end.. met up with Dear.. Yep.. he bought a TV set.. and after dinner.. we went to a pet shop.. Dear said he wanted to buy hamster.. I was kinda shocked.. coz he don't dare to catch hamsters.. I kept asking him if he is sure about it.. and he said yea.. Alright.. then we bought 2.. we juz picked any of the 2 and happen that one is a male.. the other is the female.. Hahazz.. so we named them as "Be Be" & "Bu Bu".. weird names.. ahhaz.. but that's wad we call each other~ Male-> Bu Bu.. Female -> Be Be.. Hehehezz.. so now for the moment.. the 2 little reascals will be placed at his house.. and we will take turns to take care.. Luckily at that ahop.. he dared to catch.. and now shouldn't be a problem.. I really wonder what happens if they give birth? Muz Plan early.. Their family planning! Hahhazzz.. Haiz.. but sad to say.. Have to study for exams.. cannot play with them.. that's why it is under Dear's care.. Anyway.. if they are in my house.. I think I no need to study liao.. Lolzzz...
if i ain't got you|11:00 PM|
Hey.. wanna see my five good buDDies? Hehehzzz...
We took this kinda long time ago.. When we were in Sec 4 I think.. Well.. I remembered kinda well.. coz I know shortly after.. I broke off with my dear..
This is another ne print which I like alot...
Two missing... Hahahzzz... But I feel it is nice though.. Makes us feel classy..
Toking about my dear.. this is a glimpse of him.. Er.. let's say.. about 3 years ago?
Cannot blame manz.. no time to take picture.. so take all these antique out.. Lolzzz~
Let me show u smthing amazing.. hehezz.. me and my sister.. when I was young.. She look so like me!
Hahazz.. Alright.. this is the "photo album show" ~ Got nothing to do..
if i ain't got you|12:44 AM|
Thursday, October 23, 2003
Eh.. Handsome anot? Of coZ lahz!! Hahahazz.. Well... juz came back not long ago.. was feeling so down.. dunnoe why.. And I asked Ben to accompany me to eat sushi.. haiz.. So funny.. I eat.. he see.. We did tok a great deal.. catch up wad had happen for that past few weeks.. coz we hardly tok then.. Becoz of our projects.. Kinda fed up yesterday coz my whole day was wasted.. never really go out at all.. juz stick at Ernest's house.. TOday.. want to meet him also cannot.. he go fishing.. say only in the night can meet me.. at 8 plus.. then I say forget it eh.. Well.. dunnoe if I am starting my revison anot.. Feel so darn tired and feel that there's ample time (which is not)... dunnoe lahz.. now back home.. dunnoe whetehr still have space for my dinner anot..
if i ain't got you|6:54 PM|
Supposingly this is the last day of school? I dunnoe.. Maybe.. Next week I still have to go for revison classes.. but it's optional.. So today there's only one compulsory lessoon and I guess it is the last.. Time really flies and now I will be sitting for my exams soon.. I haven't even start revising.. NOt like me eh? Coz I have been concentrating on my projects.. Well.. they are over.. and I guess today will be my first day of revision (I hope). Throughout these sememster.. I've learnt quit alot of things.. Yea.. I find that projects are not a good way to judge your ability.. coz in the end you will find out that you are covering ppl's asses and it affects your ability due to lack of time.. and no cooperation~ Sometimes even you get a good grade.. doesn't mean you do well.. Think again.. Are u the one really doing it??? There's always this peer evaluation thingie after our projects and suppoed to be confidential.. we can't write much even though u didn't contribute... Coz maybe you will juz turn ur back on us and bite us? And turn urself to be a pitiful and harmless person? And we are the evil ones? So in the end if you fail the module.. everyone is gonna blame us.. Yes US.. and no one will say "U deserve it".. Y? "Aiyah... classmates mah.. you still have to be with them for 1 and a half year more.. Forget it lahz..." Those are the comments we've received... But it is so pointless.. Yes.. but are u going to help those "sleeping partners" to take advantage of us for another 1 and a half years? They won't learn! Some ppl are selfish... And I know very well.. you are the one who suffer if you are selfish.. Juz rememebr.. U know who you are. Damn those ppl. Fucking hell.. search your conscious. Or do u have one?
if i ain't got you|9:43 AM|
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
Yes.. I've finished all my projects.. and now preparing for exams.. Hehezz.. woke up earlier as usual today to prepare my presentation stuff.. And well.. today's presentation was fun.. Everyone n the class is very cooperative.. very "on".. coz there are 5 marks.. which have to keeo our classmates involv3d.. and I think all of us could score on that.. Even the new marker who really saw our class performance for the first time.. said "Well.. this is smthing different." MAybe she never imagine that we could do so many interesting and funny stuff.. After that.. my ECPJ grp members and I stayed back to discuss our final report which had to be handed up tomorrow.. The guys wanted to go KTV.. I wanted to.. but then I was really very tired.. coz I only slept 7 hours in total for 2 days in a row.. Went home and took a nap... 4 hours! Yea.. and now I still feel very sleepy.. Juz now.. went out with Ernest to eat supper.. Finally get to see him after so many days.. Haiz.. now another new type of stres.. Exams... damn sianz.. hardly can rest~~~ Who knows that maybe when school holidays start.. I will feel weird.. as no work has to be done.. :)
if i ain't got you|12:34 AM|
Monday, October 20, 2003
Well... me ECPJ Presentation is finally over.. Hmm.. a very long story to tell.. After this incident.. I am thinking whether I should choose Business Track. Is it too late or smthing? I dunnoe.. Well.. I cried during presentation.. yes.. And ya know why.. coz for the first round of presentation.. my ASP codes couldn't seem to work! Really! Then I was like so fed up and said to myself.. "This is it? After so much of hard work.. I get this? Errors all over?" I dunnoe.. but luckily.. After Yiluan opened our integrated copy in another computer.. it works fine.. Then I was relieved.. Then after the presentation.. Mdm Tay said, "Dun worry Crystal... We know that your codes could work and we've already checked.. anyway.. it's only a module!" Anyway.. a module or half a module is very much important to me.. She did say that she knows that we put in lotsa hard work.. and we did a good job..After hearing this.. all the hard work.. maybe it's kinda worth it.. Hehehezz.. Although the worst is over..but I still have another Project Presentation (bIz Com) tomorrow.. And my group members are yet to combine a 600-word piece essay.. sIanz.. But juz now when we stayed in school to rehearse.. it was kinda fun.. Maybe this project is not that bad after all.. Oh yah.. for my ECPJ project.. there are some miscommunications...haiz... On Sunday.. Yao Cong, Sim Lim and Yi Luan came to my house to "bia" the ECPJ.. Yao Cong and Sim Lim went home only at 2.. Whereas after Yi Luan has gone home.. at 3 am.. she has to look thru oir work.. Yes... we spent more than 12 hours of integrating.. and I can tell u.. it's really hard work.. So.. after the presentation.. I treated them McDonald's dessert... I guess all of us have done our best.. And today.. My dear was kinda cold towards me... I dunnoe why.. maybe becoz I was too busy in my work for the past few days.. or weeks.. I hardly can spend time with him.. I dunnoe lahz.. but I feel so damn shagged.. and I dun wanna quarrel with him for such over trival matters.. I hope he will juz understand my workload.. LAst night only sleep for about 2 hours plus.. now still have to "chiong" for tomrorow's project.. and tomorrow after the presentation.. my ECPJ grp members have to come together and discuss about the final report we have to end up on Wed.. dunnoe leh.. feel like sleeping now.. but can't.. have to wait for my grp memebers to send me their part.. so I can combine.. Maybe I go and eat first.
if i ain't got you|11:32 PM|
IF I KNEW
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.
There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.
if i ain't got you|3:03 AM|
Saturday, October 18, 2003
Yea.. juz came back from school.. Sad to say.. I've yet to complete my part.. It's not that there are lots to do.. it's juz that I have to spend lotsa time to debug my error.. I guess everyone is like that.. If all of us knows the codes well.. Well maybe we can already finish the project in a week.. Almost more than half of my class went to school early in the morning.. juz to "chop" comp.. Haiz.. I was busying helping ppl to see codes.. rather than doing it for myself.. iT is juz so sick.. Later Sim Lim and Yao Cong are coming to my house to integrate our project.. I hope for my part.. there are not problems.... Haizzzz..... Dunnoe lahz.. got to go and do some stuff liao...
if i ain't got you|5:47 PM|
Friday, October 17, 2003
Heya.. suddenly remembered that the Bidding of Car registration results are out.. Well.. it was unsuccessful.. kinda disappointed.. Arghz.. means that I will get my car so much later? I dunnoe wad to do next.. all depend on my parents.. Well.. last night I slept about 4 plus.. and woke up at 6 plus.. yea.. why? Becoz of my ASp.. and today another round of ASP.. hahazz.. went back to schhol this morning (7.30-7.45) to "chop" computer.. and I think tomorrow will be the same.. coz only a few labs are available~ Haiz.. I dunnoe.. but I have a feeling that my part will not complete.. kinda sianzzzz..... HOpe to at least get a "B" and I'm happy enough..
Nothing much had happen today.. Hmm.. Well.. went do do some suties for my CCA.. Alumini Nite.. yEa.. Doreen and I were the ushers.. Yep.. We were asked to wear school uniform.. and I got to wear.. CHIJ Uniform.. yep.. looks kinda "pregnant" on me.. hahahazz.. Anyway.. we had free dinnner.. but Doreen and I couldn't eat.. Too stress.. If I really publish my stuff tomorrow.. alright.. means that tomorrow might be my last day of "stress".. as in I do not have to think about ASP codes anymore.. come to think of it.. feeling relaxed.. haiz.. But I guess the worst is already over.. my fate will be decided during presentation.. I really hope my hard work will pay off.. Really.. I only expect a "B"... Got to go and do some stuff liao.. Cya
if i ain't got you|11:18 PM|
Thursday, October 16, 2003
Well.. it has been sometime since I blogged.. Let me steal some time.. Well.. I have been very busy with my project lately.. Go to school as early as 8.. and come home as late as 10 plus.. My friends have I have been dominating the computer labs.. Not that we can't do it at home.. BUt if we have any questions or problems.. we can ask help from each other.. even though we are of the different group.. My friends have been very helpful and tried to solve my little bitty problems.. Mainly Derrick, Doreen & I have been trying to solve our shopping carts.. and Benji.. tried to solve his "booking" part.. Well I am almost there.. wuth some flows..and I hope by the time we submit.. we can really give the markers one beautiful piece.. And if I really do that.. it is a great achievement for me.. I hardly can do this shitty stuffs.. I used to worry alot.. which is not of use.. and I happen to read one quote yesterday.. " A ton of Worry will not solve an Ounce of Problem".. It is so true and that was when I really wake up. These few days.. I dun even have time to worry.. instead I spend all my available time on my 2 Projects.. Yes.. 2 projects have to be handed up next week.. and this term project (ECPJ) sucks! Even for this week.. I can't see my Dear.. Have to wait till next week.. after all my projects.. But that's not the end.. I still have to study for 5 papers! Yea! Can you beat that? So many Projects.. yet so many papers! This call to shows that all our darn projects only consists of very little percentage of the total.. but ironically.. we spent a hell of lot of time doing it.... 5 hours of work for 10 %? It definitely sux. Yes.. every little mark counts.. I find that this time I am not hardworking.. is that I am obliged to do them~ Yea.. Who dun want to slack? Alright.. my alarm is ringin.. that means I'm going to bathe! Catcha with all of ya.. later.. Maybe Next week?
if i ain't got you|10:26 AM|
Monday, October 13, 2003
One call from her.. and it makes me feel betta.. dunnoe why..
if i ain't got you|10:19 AM|
Wad a nice morning to start off.. (Nice my ass)... haiz... last night.. Ernets and I were toking about the future.. wad we wanna be.. Then we tot of a crazy idea.. setting up a kelong~ Yes.. U heard it correctly.. a kelong..~ Peaceful life.. and no worries.. no working stress.. Yes.. that's it.. Haiz.. but of coz seeting up a kelong is not easy.. need capital and need a good location where all the fishes go.. Am I dreaming? Nahz.. I think that's the life I really want now.. at least.. Free of all these "education" and "certificate" stuff.. Fuck them. Celeste is right.. you don't reallly need a "certificate" to earn big bucks... I think studying is a waste of time and money.. but in Singapore.. we are somehow conformed to do so.. coz everyone is doing that.. If I ever tell my mom that I quit studying now and work.. she's gonna "screw" me.. No doubt! In this small pathetic country.. you have to move on.. and try means and ways to climb up others.. wads the point? IS that wad you really want in life? Wad do all of us want?
if i ain't got you|9:49 AM|
Sunday, October 12, 2003
Hmm... countdown to my doom.. 7 days.. yes.. Please pray for me.. I tried my ASP codes today and I have no error.. BUT CAN'T DISPLAY! I tot I felt some light sheding on me.. Hahah.. dream on.. If I really couldn't solve the damn problem.. I might even get a 'D'.. and maybe.. I'll juz destined to fate.. Juz get a darn diploma..Stop think about the Merit award! Tomorrow meeting Mdm Tay and hope she could give some "helpful" advice.. Yes.. I do understand wad she wants.. but it's juz too vague.. We all know the logic.. but the problem is we can't visualize the codes.. ArgHZ!!! I know I shouldn''t give up.. yes.. I shouldn't.. I want to go on.. be a survivor.. Please support me and give me some guidence..
if i ain't got you|10:10 PM|
Saturday, October 11, 2003
Well.. I am awfully feeling bad now.. I dunnoe why.. But I have a premonition.. iT suxs.. I guess all I have to do is to try my best.. Try to complete my shopping cart.. I dunnoe.. but I feel so lost and my ideas are a mess.. I am doing the backpart now.. and I really wonder if it works.. I dunnoe.. I had my International Business today.. and I know I've tried my very best.. Yes.. for all the tests I've studied.. This one I really put alot of effort.. but it washes down the drain.. My mind was somehow "blank" after I saw the paper.. At that moment.. I felt smthing which I never feel before.. I wanted to stand up and leave the lecture hall.. submitting a blank piece of script... but I still held on and try to write some things on it.. I only hope for a pass then.. I guess my mind is really preoccupied with stuff.. and my main worry is this ECPJ.. I really dread when the assessment day comes... Everyone has been trying their best and so did I.. I do admit that I dun have any talent for this and I am not smart.. But I really tried many means and ways.. but it juz fail.. I shouldn't have taken that part of the project.. otherwise I won't feel so miserable and at least I know where I am heading to. I've already broke down a few times regarding this matter and I feel that there's more to come.. The tots of it can never be erased.. Even when I am sleeping.. I dreamt of all that shit.. Codes.. Codes and cOdes!!! I really need a break.. Benji said I have a choice.. I can choose to ignore it.. But the problem is that I have high expectations of myself.. that's why.. My heart told me to give up... My mind won't allow me.. I really hate it.. I am going "gaga".. Hey.. I really feel terrible.. I really want to put everything aside.. Let me be drunk for a day.. Please.. juz for a day.. and I will be pleased..
if i ain't got you|7:01 PM|
Thursday, October 09, 2003
Wad the hell... Is this my life? What happen to my life? It's screwed.. Well.. basically it's becoz of school.. Where's all the fun and laughter? Nah.. School's being dense.. People have changed and so do I.. Why? Becoz of school.. Why do all teachers think that we are only studying their module and never think that we are also busy with other modules? Never do tutorial for juz "ONCE" also kana screwed.. The past few times do.. also never hear them praising us... except Mdm Tay... I think the assessment of my ASP codes went alright today.. better than I expected.. Suppose to swim with my dear today.. But I was juz too tired and stressed up.. and I have to revise for my IB test (still revising).. Right now.. I really can't be bothered by so many things.. Of coz I've noticed some changes.. but I will juz be silent.. coz I have other things to worry about..
Anyway.. my class is planning to buy jerseys... for each and everyone of us.. like a class T-shirt.. I wonder if they are really implementing it... Names and numbers are going to be printed on the jerseys and we have already written down wad we want.. hehehzz.. I think I am going to print "Krista" and number "2".. hehehzzz.. wanted to take number 17.. but taken by Emily.. Hmm.. but it's okie.. 3 weeks to my exams.. so shitty~
if i ain't got you|10:24 PM|
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
SHOWER ME WITH YOUR LOVE (Surface)
My heart is filled with so much love
And I need someone I can call my own
To fall in love--that's what ev'ryone's dreaming of
I hold this feeling oh so strong
Life is too short to live alone
Without someone to call my own
I will care for you, you will care for me
Our love will live forever
(Chorus:)
Shower me with your love
Shower me with the love that I long for
Shower me with your love
Shower me with the love I've been waiting for
I close my eyes and pray all my wishes come true
Ev'ry night I go to sleep
Until you're mine, I'll wait for you endlessly
Can't you see
Fairy tales, they do sometimes come true
If you believe, it could happen to you
Like the stars that shine way up in the sky
Our love will live forever
(Repeat chorus)
Like the stars that shine way up in the sky
Our love will live forever
Live forever
(Repeat chorus)
Shower me with your love
Shower me with the love I've been waiting for
if i ain't got you|11:54 PM|
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
Yao Cong's grandmother juz passed away early this morning.. And I went to the wake.. And this is the first time I ever went to a wake.. Well.. I was kinda nervous at that time.. coz I don't know what are the "dos" and "don'ts".. When I reach there.. I juz follow suit.. do wadever my friends do.. I could see that everyone was kinda solem.. Then Yao Cong joined us when all of us sat down... Ironically, he is the one who was smiling and laughing away at first.. I dunnoe how to react.. Then after a while.. the table we sat was kinda noisy.. Yao Cong seems alright.. which in fact we all know that he is not.. He was so into in his work for the past few weeks maybe becoz he doesn't want to think much.. At times.. when we are doing project together... Yao Cong would sometimes reveal wad had happen to his grandmother and I could feel a deep sense of hurt in him.. Anyway.. I really dunnoe how it feels like when your loved one passed away.. Well.. I guess it really hurts.. And yea.. hell alot.. but I was kinda relieved to see that he is strong.. Well.. Take care Yao Cong~ Anyway.. I finally saw his dog "Whiskey".. Heheh.. very cute.. was grown up already.. hehehe.. Did stroke him a few times.. and the time juz flew.. it's already 9.. So Benjamin and I went off first coz it is kinda late..
Oh yah.. smthing to say today.. rememebr I told ya about the incredible pod race.. Yea! Benjamin and I went to the booth and register at first.. couldn't find our name.. kinda confused.. then they asked us "Is your team name Beans(smthing) or Pig?" Well.. it's kinda obvious... hahaha.. then we took the T-shirt and changed. The first round is like we are required to play a game.. shooting at smthing.. and muz get over 180 pts then can pass.. Luckily.. Benjamin made it.. then the next round os surfing the pod.com webbie.. we have to answer 5 questions.. We took a hell of long time.. Well.. it becoz of the long loading time.. Then after the 2nd round.. We have this MMS game.. They sent us 4 clues.. and we are supposed to find where the picture was taken.. go to that place.. take a photo of it and send it back to them.. Hell unluckily.. They can't receive our MMS.. Haiz.. in the end.. they juz send all the clues at one time.. which is not suppose to be... Anyway.. we did find within the time limit.. but not the fastest of coz.. We took hell a long time to find the 2nd and 4th clue.. Haiz.. but it was fun.. hahaha... Well.. have to do project now... Cya!
if i ain't got you|9:58 PM|
Monday, October 06, 2003
I felt like I was in a dark black hole last night.. with no one there... helping me... When I shouted.. I only can hear my voices of crying and screaming.. This project is really getting into my damn head and I juz can't do anything about it.. I think about it every now and then.. in sleep.. during meals.. during my revision of tests.. when I am out.. Practically wherever I go! Mad Tay didn't access us on Friday and today we are required to submit our codes... Well.. Sad to say.. I have done my best.. I really did. But wad's the use.. Would she understand? I guess my 10 marks will be juz blown away like that.. Arghz.. I couldn't care less anymore.. Today I have a whole line of activities for myself.. After lecture at 1.. will be discussing 2 projects.. ECPJ (the deadly one) and IPTN.. submission this Friday.. I have another project which we have not touched.. Biz CoM~ It sux alright.. is like even at the end of the term.. have to submit 2 projects. I really can't wait for holidays to come.. I believe.. this time after my last paper.. you will never see a trace of sadness in my face.. Never I am going to broad over my results.. I juz play! And only worry when results are out.. Hahah... Well.. I was thinking.. I chose the IT track.. I wonder.. if I really get into IT.. can I change my option? Is it advisable?? I dunnoe.. Oh yah.. I will be adding a link.. called "Friendster".. joIn lah.. so you might get in contact with your long lost friends? Or do you want to? So sianz.. Todat going to school myself.. and I have lots to bring.. bag damn heavy.. HAving a revision lecture today.. and Facing Mdm Tay is the last thing I wanted when I am in school.. I dunno why.. her presence gave me some level of stress.. From day 1 till now..
Ernst is going for his checkup today.. wonder how it goes.. I wonder when will he be in.. I am juz afraid that he is not there.. I know I should be prepared.. But it juz sux..
Anyway.. it seems like whenever I have some school problems.. Benji will be there.. Thanks Benji.. there's no way I can thank you.. You are really one great friend.. When I have problems.. you will know.. and juz right.. you are there.. Funny eh.. Maybe god sent you.. Okie lah.. I do u a favour.. find a gf for you during the holidays.. hahaha... jUZ joKing. You do not need my help.. you also can find..
if i ain't got you|10:17 AM|
Saturday, October 04, 2003
Ha ha... wad a day today.. This morning, Bernice came to my house and both of us revise our own work.. although I am supposed to teach her some chemistry stuff.. but I forgotten most of the things.. so I only taught her some.. Anyway.. after she left... I continued to do my tutorials and sudenly felt very sleepy.. then in the end.. after lying on the bed for 10 minutes, Beji messaged me and said he will be arriving to my house soon.. coz we will be doing a project together.. (IPTN).. Yapz.. fetched him from MRT.. then after coming to my house.. we wear straight into work.. and took quite a long time to figure our "physical connectivity" of the network.. haha.. then Benji suggested to use some cut and paste stuff.. then in the end we found out that we only submit the software of the project.. Hahah.. damn sianz.. so we planning to scan wad we had done.. After doing.. my sister bought in a game board "Harry Potter" and asked us to play with her.. The first round when we played.. screwed up.. coz we didn't really know the rules of the game.. then after the game.. I read the rules.. Then we played the second round.. Hahah.. we took hell a long time this round.. coz of all the rules and regualtions.. it made the game more difficult to complete.. at 10 plus.. we finished the game.. The winner is my sister.. hahahah!!! The whole day juz like that.. But in the end... it did relieve some of my stress..
Anyway.. I went out with Ernest yesterday.. watching a show "Once Upon In Mexico".. well it was alright.. kinda boring.. haiZ.. next time I won't allow Ernest to choose the show anymore.. Very weird .... hahaha..Then I bought Zhi Qiang's present.. hehehe.. Well.. that's all for now cya!!!
if i ain't got you|10:36 PM|
Friday, October 03, 2003
Hi Hi.. sianz... Today's tutorial cancelled.. and ECPJ extend to 3 hours.. how nice yea? Tot could escape.. haiz.. After school discuss project.. Guess my date with Ernest is gonna delay.. hope that they won't take so long today.. Sianz.. everyone is rushing for their part of ASP.. hope to show Mdm Tay smthing.. I guess mine is sufficient to "pass".. maybe I dunnoe.. or maybe.. she will say "Codes.. All Wrong.. REDO!".. Wah.. then I die liao.. confirm get another "C" or "D" in that module or even fail.. so hitty.. So sad.. no one informed Zhi Qiang about the cancellation of tutorial.. I tot Wee Leng will message him since he messaged me.. Haiz.. Why everytime got problem.. come to me... if not blame me why I never inform them or wadsoever.. Hello.. I am not the only person in the class? Wad makes all of you all think I am genius that I know everything? And I am definitely not the class operator.. Yes.. we do pass around messages.. sent messages and stuff.. I used to send a number of them and it costs a bomb man! I know the message will definitely circulate around.. that's why I didn't send.. Kinda pissed off and making feel guilty.. Dunnoe why.. Life is juz so shitty.. And worst thing.. I lost my guitar books.. it muz be one of the corners in my house.. Get off my back.. f*uCking pIsSed today!
Note: I'm not blaming anyone.. not angry at anyone.. juz feeling pisSed about the waY liFe is!
if i ain't got you|11:01 AM|
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if i ain't got you|1:49 AM|
Juz finished my bowl of "hOnEy sTaRs".. yumpz.. and juz finished toking to bEnJI over the phone.. haiZ.. tIme really flies.. crap abit and already 1.30a.m.. still lamenting about the ASP we are doing.. sianz.. Any.. did smthing out in the last minute.. finally my product can be shown in the shopping cart.. however.. maximum only can contain one items.. aRghz.. have to improve on that.. Tomorrow Mdm Tay checking.. so I hope she won't say.. "Huh? 2 weeks you do like that only ah?".. and there goes my marks.. Haiz.. pRaY hArd.. Had another test today.. it was alright.. and next week I will be having my last test.. International Business... and I left 3 projects.. ONe bIz cOm.. oNe IPTN and lastly.. which only ends at the end of the term.. ECPJ!!! This is shit.. nevermind.. left one mth.. juz one mth.. and everythgin will be over..
Oh Yah.. today my dad told me that a new list of car registration numbers for bidding are out.. and might be planning to get the plate number with only one "9" in it.. kinda excited.. this means that I'm getting my vehicle soon if the bidding is successful! At least there's smthing to look forward to..
if i ain't got you|1:42 AM|
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
Well.. wad a tough day today.. A VERY LONG day indeed... I had a test today and it went alright.. also... There's this prototype clarification thingie today.. Before my group's turn.. I was like kinda worried.. worried that Mdm Tay will critisize... jUZ say "whY tHis.. WhY tHat.. muZ dO lIke tHat.. muZ dO lIke tHat".. true enough.. it happened.. Well.. she was not too hard on us.. maybe her mood was okie.. Also.. We got our database assignment back.. Miss Heng said our group was fine.. and we even got an "A" for the part.. cOngrates to all my grp members.. heheh.. Well.. I dunnoe.. but I do hope that things will turn out better now.. After the depressing period.. haiz.. it sux alright..
Well.. after all the struggling and thinking.. finally.. get to do smthing fun next week.. There will be an amazing treasure hunt.. sponsored by Pod I think.. Haha.. goodie bag worth of $40! I wonder what will it be.. At first.. I tot I will not be in.. coz someone called Shannen and told her that she and Melissa were short-listed (they are in a team).. Yep.. and I tot.. gEeZ.. I tot juz register then can play already.. but No.. have to see the number of applicants too.. Well.. later in the afternoon.. I received the similar call! Yea! Wanted to go for the time slot Melissa and Shannen had gone.. but it was full.. so chose the time slot before them instead.. hAiz.. anywaY.. I am kinda looking forward to it.. And this is like the first time I am teaming with Ben to play a game.. hahah.. wonder how it goes..
Oh Yah.. ZhI qIang biRthDay coMing.. wonder what will I give???
if i ain't got you|10:25 PM|
